I wasn't raised in a "Christian Home". My father had made a profession of faith many years before but Mom was more spiritual than dad. My teenage friends weren't Christians and we went to a very liberal church. I learned to cuss, smoke cigars, lust after and chased after women. I smoked those twisted ended cigarettes with the illicit vegetable matter in them. I couldn't even open a bible. Hatred would come up in my heart when I tried. I would actually get hot inside me if I tried. Our best man and maid of honor got married and after a few years moved away to California. They called one week and asked if they could come back during the week and visit. Strange, in the middle of the week for a visit. We picked them up at the airport and when they came into our trailer the wife said, "Praise the Lord brother and sister we're glad to be back. I thought California, "right climate for fruits and nuts", I didn't think that it would get to them that quick. After supper they wanted to talk to us about the Lord. I said I've had churchiosity up to here, me and God will get together someday but this isn't it. You can talk to Mary if you want to. I went into the living room and listened to my satanic rock and roll. I even kept it low enough for them to hear. Mary accepted that night. The friend's wife told her that the Lord might not want you in the church you're in. They left. She triedto go to the same church. She got sick that Sunday. As soon as the services were over she felt well. Same thing the next Sunday. I told her I would find her a church. I'm not saved mind you. A fellow at work had asked me to a church a couple of months before to see a film on Noah's ark. I thought that I could sneak in and out without some Jesus Freak driving me nuts. We didn't go but it sounded like it might be a place to go. I asked directions and drove her there. It was 12 miles from where we lived and I knew Mary would never find it. The guy didn't tell us to take a bible. Only people in the whole place without one. The pastor was telling these people to turn to thius passage and turn to that passage. I was having a time trying to follow along with his thoughts even without a bible. He made an altar call and wouldn't you know it, there goes Mary down in front with about a dozen other people. They even took her off somewhere. I was standing in a hallway waiting for the longest time. My daughter was in a nursery somewhere and my wife was in a room SOMEWHERE. Oh man was I lonely! One of members came along and said "Prtaise the Lord brother, your wife accepted". I said "yeh" like somebody had died. The next week we brought a bible, Didn't have a clue where we were suppoosed turnto. Tried looking in the index but he would be done before we got there. Then he made the same altar call as before. The Holy Spirit took over, to this day I can't tell you what I did that day. I didn't accept till that night. We had already went to bed. I didn't know what to say or how to do it but I knew I wasn't right. I told the Lord something like- Lord I know I'm not what I'm supposed to be come in and make what you want me to be. The Lord accepted more what was in my heart than my words. Some of the people on this forum know that I am handicapped. If I could have stood up and danced on that bed I would have. My sins were many and the Lord took away my burden. Then I could not get enough of the Bible. I bought a pocket new testament with Psalms. I would drive the car with it over my steering wheel. Read a few words and look. Read a few words and look. Not recommended, do not do this at home. You know your heart, if you need to get together with the Lord about any issue, don't wait.
Masy God bless you and yours,
Paul(NWO)
Masy God bless you and yours,
Paul(NWO)
