I am hopefully going to put some money into my checking account tomorrow for paying bills and shopping for what I need...I have come to the conclusion (well maybe until it happens again) that if I become as sick as I was about a month ago that I will go to the ER and into the hospital if I have to, for I am tired of having prescriptions written for me to fill when I visit the dr without knowing what really is wrong, if anything, and I believe there is but I've been told many times that I am a hypocondriac and/or it is all in my head! Well, when I was hurting with a hemoraging tumor on the right ovary (very painful and bleeding a lot) and they wouldn't do what was needed to find out what was wrong with me for almost five years, and said it was all my head and wanted to and did prescribe anti-depressants, I told them I didn't hurt up there, but down here...even my OB GYN dr didn't do anything and said that I had fibroid tumors that would dry up and not bother me later! Yeh! Right! I had a hysterectomy and a hemoraging tumor removed at the age of 43!
Now, I still hurt in my lower extremities and it is not my head but I do have bad headaches now and then and get stressed from the drs being so willing to use me for a guiney pig :angry: ; therefore, I take anti-depressants when I have them to take, as I haven't taken any now for way over a month ! :angry:
Thank you Martin for wanting to help me, as I talked to my son and he didn't seem to care whether I had meds or food at all...He is supposed to help me get the 1977 Mercury back in the garage, as I have to get it out of the driveway by May 8 according to the County ordinance...they are running rough shod over us and we are unincorporated in our part of the county! GRRRR!!! Told him the garage needed cleaned out, so we could get it in there after the battery is charged or so him and Glenn could push it inside and the idea didn't sit well with him, although he didn't say anyting, and I am unable to do very much and a lot I cannot do by myself! Lot of the stuff was put out there when my brother and I packed for preparing to move to Cuba in 2008 but never did because of my brother's Pulmonary Hypertension illness which wasn't diagnosed until Cliff was in the hospitals in May of 2009....he passed away in August after being in Hospice Care! I guess I raised my kids wrong and they don't see after or do for me like other children do for their aging parents...I just hope and pray they never put me in a nursing home, because if they don't come very often now...they would never visit me then, except maybe for Tami, if she could afford it and wasn't too ill herself!
This is not a pity party story on my part...just telling it like it is...but I love them and I'm sure they love me but are of a different generation than I am or then when Larry and I took care of our ill father and then I took care of my brother, Cliff! I pray that when it is time for me to go or be totally cared for that someone is willing to help take care of me! Amen!
I don't go to bed very early, as I can't go to sleep and it is worse when I try to go to sleep earlier and can't! When I sleep deeply until about 11:00 am I do and feel a lot better..but sometimes takes a while to get my engine started with a couple of cups of coffee!
Sorry I write so much but Ma is a person who writes and can't tell anything without writing a lot....soooooo just be patient with me, OKAY!! Love ya all in Jesus Christ!
Ma Betty
