When I was younger but not still young... I thought... man! I wish I were young again. Now that I am older (5
I wouldn't be young again if the Lord Himself came down and offered me the option. No WAY...
Frankly, i'm not sure i'd live through it again and I am certain that I only lived through it the first time because of Grace and Mercy. I tell people now, "I just glad I don't look as old as I feel". Some people get it, others don't.
Now... like I said, I wouldn't be young again if I could but I sure would like to feel young once in a while. As we get older modern medicine extends our life and it prevents and conquers a few problems but... we still age every day and there is no way to not feel it. We can keep a good attitude and I mostly do but I don't go around "calling things that are not as though they are" when it comes to the way I physically feel, if I am asked, "how are you"? I may just tell the truth, laff.
Anyway... hang in there, get those tests and don't let the doctor put you off. NO ONE will take care of your health if you dont. My sister was an RN for decades. She worked in the surgical ICU at Tallahassee Memorial hospital. She once told me that if I ever had a doctor that I had any 2nd thoughts about... to find another doctor. She said not to fool around with it. Anytime anything seems wrong or you aren't completely confident in your doctor... find another one. Bottom line it's your body, your health, and your responsibility. Besides, soon the government (in its infinate wisdom and in its loving care) is going to decide that we are too old tof that hip replacement, knee replacement, or heart valve replacement... of for that cancer treatment...
GET your colinoscopy and don't allow for a delay...
Let me tell you a short story. A little over three years ago I had my annual physical. I had a "stress test" about 13 years ago and all was well. I (ME) decided that it was time for my heart to be checked again. I had NO symptoms of a heart problem but all the men on both sides of my family die of either accidents or heart disease... so, I told my doctor it was time to take a llo at my heart again. Well, he took a close listen and said he thought he heard a slight murmor and used that to refer me to a cardiologist. The cardiologist did a echo stress test and saw that there was indeed a murmor, very slight. I have a bi-cuspid valve where there should be a tri-cuspid valve. That in itself is no real problem, i've had it all my life but he decided that since I was alredy there and already had a needle in my femoral artery that he would take a quick look inside using a fiber optic device. He told me that he was sure that he was not going to find any problem because of what the echo test found. The only reason he went ahead and did it was because of me telling them about my family history.... and it all started because I asked to be tested... SO... he took that quick look, looked at me and told me. "you should be dead". He saw what he thought was a 99.9% blockage in my right main artery (the widow maker). He freaked out, called an ambulance, shuttled me over to a larger hospital and I had two stints put in that afternoon (they almost put off looking until the next Monday... I could have died). The surgeon who put the stints in said I actually had two blockages an 85% and a 95% blockage, the 85 was first inline and probably took a little pressure off the 95% bolckage, that is my explaination anyway. I had no heart attack, no pain, nothing in my jaw or left arm. I was tired after climbing a hill a few weeks earlier but I figured I was just out of shape.
Ma... tell them what you want done and don't let tham put you off. If you don't think your doctor is listening to you, find another one. Ask your pharmicist who is a good doctor. Your health is more up to you than anyone else...
and... that goes for everyone!!! Most people don't change services even when they know they aren't getting the best service, I see it all the time. I own a pest control company and I sometimes get customers who change over from the big companies... they always seem to say, "They were good at first but for the last several years they have been horrible". People, you and I, have a hard time changing even when we know we are not getting the best.
Ma... maybe I am not writing this for you, maybe I am.. but I am certain that I am writing it for someone.
If we would all listen to out inner voice, the Holy Spirit, we would all be so much better off.... but in the end we all get more and more tired. We all get started a little slower and slower, we all seem to have new aches and pains... always something new and we take longer and longer to mend... it is the wages of sin still imposed on this mortal body. Even though we are already immortal, even though out life is hidden with God in Christ, even though we died and our life is now Christ.. these old sinful bodies die a slow and sometimes painful death. I hope to fully experience my ddeath when it comes. I have absolutely no desire to die peacefully in my sleep. I want to fully experience both life and death and apparrantly I want to ramble on as long as anyone will listen... laff.
I hope you are well. I hope all your tests come out great and I hope that one day this week you wake up and have a day when you feel like a 20something all day. Arthritis is badnews. I have it in my fingers, they don't work when I get up in the AM but after that they get OK. I have it bad in my cervical spine but I have found something that works for me. If you want to know about it PM me. I've been through years of all kinds of different treatments so I know about most of them but everyone is different... so, you may do fine with injections... I did not.
God bless you.
Julien
Ma Betty
I don't like to tell him what illnesses I do have, because he is a pill pusher and really doesn't find out what is causing the illnesses...in other words uses a bandaid to cover instead of getting to the root of the problem! A lot of it is my fault as I don't like to or cannot afford hospital stays or tests....which are expensive even with Medicare and United Health Care Ins. I am paying out as much as I can afford to, right now, and that is why I have an unknown prayer request for God to answer in my favor, so that I will have more money to pay off more debts and pay off my home mortgage first! I was doing good by watching what I spent and when until Cliff came up and I was helping him, finanially, at first, to come up and I paid for a few things he needed and then he paid be back over a couple of years!