Feeling spiritually low this evening...Need Prayer.....

[Anonymous]

When I took Cliff to the ER for the swelling and discoloring of his feet and legs...never thought they would put him right into the hosp again for his breathing, although I knew how he struggles for oxygen. They put him in ICU last Tuesday evening and then took him out for a short while Monday, but put him right back into the ICU, when he was coughing and choking on his food...turning red, blue, purple and other colors! Scary for us both!

Today the Social Service talked to Cliff and me and since he has to have 24 hr care now and cannot afford a Home Visiting Nurse and I can't take care of him all the time, he has decided to go into the VA Hospital under Hospice Care. I had to come home and try to find his discharge papers, which I finally did, and will be taking them to the VA tomorrow for his admittance when everything is taken care of! Also, I will go to our bank to see about placing my name on his checking acct, while he is able to sign and okay my taking care of his financial status! Talked to Hospice Care and they seem to be very nice and considerate of Cliff's illness which cannot be cured and is progressing fast to his disability to be able to breathe....any effort causes him to cough and lose oxygen! Soooo,
he will not be coming home to my house and will probably be in the VA until he is no longer with us!

My heart is sad and heavy tonight and can't help but cry, as we have been so used to each other since his coming back to MO to stay from FL, Oct. 7, 2006, that I already miss having him here with me! I'm glad our sister came up and stayed a week before he had to go back into the hosp since he will be going into the VA, as far as we know now! The nurses in the ICU and on the 7th floor where they moved him to today have been very nice and treat him really well! I guess his ins is running out for this year with Medicare Complete and he will not have to pay at the VA, as he is a Veteran! Wish I could take care of him....but I'm just not able to care for him like he needs to be taken care of! I am so thankful to everyone and to God for all the prayers for him to finally come up and be here to help me and then for me to help him! Being only a 1-1/2 years apart, we were close when children at home until he left home and then went into the army during the 1960s!

Sorry about typing so much but it makes me feel a little better to write my sorrows down and get prayed for....Thank you all for your prayers for Cliff and me! God Bless! Betty

 

[steve in so la]

the VA is the best place for him now. They will do all the things that you would like to do for him
You & Cliff are in God's care so whatever happens in life is the Lord's plans, I sure will pray for you & Cliff, Steve in so az

 

[bossman]

Praying daily for you and Cliff , God sees every tear in darkness we cry and hes here to remind you that for those tears He died. (love that song hope it brings you peace that surpasses all understanding)

 

[SeniorSeeker]

Dear Ma Betty,

Admittedly we have mixed emotions, in times like these, and find it difficult to utter the words that truly comfort those, like yourself & Cliff, going through such situations. The one thing that comes to mind is: 'Jesus Loves Me ~ This I Know' and 'Amazing Grace' among others that, we as Christians, love so much. To be sure, both Cliff and yourself will be in my thoughts and prayers. Your story brings to mind being with my mother, when she was placed in hospice, and holding her until she breathed her last. As a believer in Christ Jesus, as Lord & Savior, I know I will see her again one day, when Jesus returns to take us all home and you will see Cliff again as well. May God bless you with the peace and understanding you need now and in the weeks to come. May God's Holy Spirit be with you now and always.

In God's Love,
Martin/SeniorSeeker

 

[SEMPERFI61]

at this point all we can do is pray for you and cliff and trust in the lord, and keep cliff comfortable until the lord calls for him.this life offers pain,hurting,and suffering but in the next life pure joy of the lord awaits for us.i have heard so many testimonies of death experiences right before death ,there are books on this subject,people seeing the lord and seeing angels.thank you jesus.

 

[Mike from MI "Iron Brigade"]

I will keep you both prayed up!

 

[TreasureDigger]

Wish there was something I could do to help you out in the natural realm but since I'm not there..... I will be praying for both you and Cliff, which is the best thing any of us can do anyway.

Lisa

 

[Anonymous]

Thanks for your prayers and kind words for comfort and peace in these times of our trials and sorrows! I know Cliff wants to stay alive, but I also think he knows it won't be so, for he has been told there is no cure and his lungs keep getting worse and worse until he won't be able to treathe! Today, he sounded congested, so hope he doesn't take pnuemonia....The rooms in the hospital are kept very cold and he has to have at least two or more blankets to stay comfortable and warmer!

Your posts brought more tears to my eyes and I know Jesus is our Comforter and gives us peace that passes human understanding, but I still feel sadness knowing we might not have him with us for very long! I lived alone for many, many years and thought I liked living alone, but since Cliff has been here, I have found out that I miss having someone to talk to, do for and to help each other! And, yet, I don't know how long I will still be mortally alive either, so we will take one day at a time! We shall meet again and rejoice in the Lord! God Bless! Betty

 

[Paul(NWOH)]

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[Mike Chgo area]

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[Paul (AR)]

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[7centsworth]

Praying for both of you Ma.

 

[RickIowa2009]

We lift both of you before the Lord, Let his hand touch and reach out to you, let him provide comfort in time of need!

 

[Anonymous]

Thanks again for prayers, comforting and tears of understanding! Cliff and I love you all in Christ's sweet love! God Bless! Ma Betty

 

[oldandtired]

And may the lord comfort and guide you

 

[Anonymous]

Thank you and I will keep the faith for I know Who is my help in time of trials and He is Jesus, my Lord and Savior! Amen! God Bless! Betty