My prayer, for the past ten months, has been that God would heal my body, my mind, my spirit and my soul. I asked Him for wisdom and understanding to serve Him better and to love all His children as He loves them. I have prayed that He would give me faith that's at least as big as a grain of mustard seed; the kind of faith that moves mount- ains. He said, in John 14:12 that, if I truly believe in Him, I would do what He has done and more. And then I am reminded of the man who told Jesus that he believes and asked Jesus to help his unbelief. In spirit, I am that man. I have come to understand that my faith is too small, my understanding lacking, and my wisdom nonexistent. He is so wise, so understanding, and loving and I fall so terribly short of His ideal of what His children are suppose to become. And yet He loves me and, for all the world, I can't figure out why because I am unworthy and don't deserve His affection. He died for me and forgave me, after I pounded the nails through his hands with my sins. All my life I have wanted to heal the sick, drive out the evil spirits, and raise the dead just as He has done but I am not able to do any of those things and I can't help but ask myself why it is that I cannot?
So my prayer, for the coming year, is that I will become all He wants me to be. I truly hope that that becomes the prayer of all mankind. Come Lord Jesus and live in and through me!