scubadetector
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I have a HUGE testimony of prayer and of the gospel. At this time I am very bitter toward the big money hungry churches. Especially ones that worry too much about their TV performance than the people that come to them. Is anybody else here stuck inbetween churches and is scared to pray because they might get an answer they do not want?
Seriously. I don't want anybody to feel bad for me. I have really been through a lot in this life and I know I must endure to the end. I love the Lord and what he has done for me, sure life is hard. I know its hard for most everybody but thats how we grow and learn. I wouldn't want others problems and I know nobody would want mine. Some we create, and others we get into because trouble finds everyone.
We are to forgive everyone 70 times 7 times and we are not to judge others.
If some christians knew I was married 4 times, I lost 6 children to divorces, and I just lost my job today, they would judge me fast.
BUT, If the first divorce was completly my fault, The second cause she decided after 4 children she wanted to go completly away from the teachings of Christ, The third was my love and she died cause her arthritus ate her lungs, and the 4th because she was a gold digger and I was lonely. And I was able to pray and get custody of 2 of my 4 children and raise them since they were 6 and 7. Maybe they could relate and not judge.
I lost my job cause I refuse to overcharge for computer work and the owner needs more money. I just can't feel good about myself when he wants me to charge 2 hours for less than 10 minutes of work. I work strickly on commission and I don't make enough to survive and thats why I find gold. I just refuse to steal from people.
Anyway, I don't care if I get judged on here. I know who I am and I know the Lord knows who I am and thats all that counts to me. I am just currious if any other christians are affraid of answers to prayers, even though they have had many prayers answered in a wonderful way. Thank you.
Seriously. I don't want anybody to feel bad for me. I have really been through a lot in this life and I know I must endure to the end. I love the Lord and what he has done for me, sure life is hard. I know its hard for most everybody but thats how we grow and learn. I wouldn't want others problems and I know nobody would want mine. Some we create, and others we get into because trouble finds everyone.
We are to forgive everyone 70 times 7 times and we are not to judge others.
If some christians knew I was married 4 times, I lost 6 children to divorces, and I just lost my job today, they would judge me fast.
BUT, If the first divorce was completly my fault, The second cause she decided after 4 children she wanted to go completly away from the teachings of Christ, The third was my love and she died cause her arthritus ate her lungs, and the 4th because she was a gold digger and I was lonely. And I was able to pray and get custody of 2 of my 4 children and raise them since they were 6 and 7. Maybe they could relate and not judge.
I lost my job cause I refuse to overcharge for computer work and the owner needs more money. I just can't feel good about myself when he wants me to charge 2 hours for less than 10 minutes of work. I work strickly on commission and I don't make enough to survive and thats why I find gold. I just refuse to steal from people.
Anyway, I don't care if I get judged on here. I know who I am and I know the Lord knows who I am and thats all that counts to me. I am just currious if any other christians are affraid of answers to prayers, even though they have had many prayers answered in a wonderful way. Thank you.
Ma Betty