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Well, after going through quite a bit of medical visits and searching for answers, I've settled in on a diagnosis of myself. I started drinking around 13 years of age, and liked the effects that it gave. I have had some traumatic physical and emotional scars over the years, and used drink to escape the pain. Quitting was easy(too easy). I'm 48 now, and never had a DUI, or legal problems from drink. I was in a thrift store last week after leaving the HP from the CT scan, and there was a hard-back book from AA titled "12 steps and 12 traditions", which is supposed to be the Bible of AA. 99cents well spent! Reading it at work yesterday was "scary". I'm a textbook case, it appears! Depression, lack of confidence, and low self-esteem are residual effects of stopping long-term drink. Lots of folks(including myself) have quit for a few days to a week, just to convince ourselves that we didn't have a problem. After a month or so goes by without it, the demons start to attack. 2 months, and you're really hurting. 3 months, and you don't know why you're still depressed...God help any of you on here that are in this situation. I hope none of you are. I don't miss the drink, but I want my sanity back. I keep praying about it, and I'm going to see a 82-year old Christian counselor today, before going to work. I sure hope that her and I will "bond" on this issue. Now, I have to deal with the issues that the drink was "numbing". Sad part is, I'm not quite sure what they may be, but I have an idea...That's a start......Rick
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God Bless! Betty