I'm listening to a band that once, about 8 years ago, inspired me to think of a plausible way to be able to project and interact with our conscious and subconscious minds into a virtual simulation of the cognitive experiences that take place(only in our skulls)--think mapping of language, and subsequently thought, by EEG, and then projection, via coding, into a graphical simulation. I envisioned a world in which we as human could interact with our deepest desires, thoughts, passions, and curiosities to the point where questions that have plagued humanity over thousands of years could be surely answered...a world where people would stop killing each other over who's God was the right one(I used to hold the belief that all regions had some awesome tenets, but all fell short when the accusations started),
I was agnostic for the longest(at least the past 15 years...I'll be 30 this year).
I'm a Christian now(2012).
For the longest time I had problems with the arrogance of a good bit of Christians. I still do, actually. While the Bible teaches us, and gives us guidance, a good bit of Christians these days throw Christ in peoples faces without acknowledging the fact that while death transcends us all, intelligence has been growing exponentially for the past 2,000 years. People are naturally inquisitive, and it's not fair to say that having questions about one's faith means that you're wrong. Bible quotes don't answer every question that non believers or questioners have, nor do proclamations of right and wrong.
While some Christians understand this, and lead as the Shepherd did, a good bit of us seem to feel self righteousness is right. Coming from a position in life in which I lived my life *modeled around Christ's*, treating others as he would, but simply not believing him to be the Saviour, and being HARSHLY criticized all around by Christians around me, I somewhat understand what Neil is saying. He has questions. All of us do. Some of us give up on the inquisitiveness and are able to accept faith more easily. But for some of us, curiosity comes as second nature. I still have questions about my existence, and the presence of humanity, and God, and eternity. I accept Christ as having died for my sins, and as the Father incarnate. But I am still alive, and just because I question does not mean that I am sinning.